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死について

フォローしている人が今まで二度ほどリンクを張ったので見たのですが、とある薬を大量に飲んで亡くなった人のこと。

「死にとりつかれる」
ということを、キング(SLAYER)が言っていたが、死神に影を踏まれたら死からは逃れられない、という現象。

私も死にたいと思っていた時期があったのでわからないでもない。

かと言って今はこうして回復した人間もいるんだ、みたいなことが言いたいのでもなく、やっぱりただ静かにハネマンのことを想う。

死は寄り添うようにやって来るのだろうか。
一瞬で命かすめ取るのだろうか。

魂はそのまま、という思想は信じているが。

そこに至る以前の、ひとりの肉体としての死。

それは本人が納得する終りとしてやってくるのか。
納得しないまま終るのか。

何にも語らないまま逝った人に文句言ってもしょうがないが、キングだけが広報になるみたいなふうじゃなくて、ハネマンにももっとしゃべってほしかった、本人はいやだっただろうけどねw
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ほへ~んとして待つ

いや~ここ数日はばたばたしてた。
メールの返信忘れとか、まじに起るんだなと思って、焦ったよ。


ところで、カウンセラとして独立したいとは思っていたけど、イコールマーケティングが必要で、って、最初は思いもしなかった。
(ほんと何も考えてなかった。)

私は幸いキャシーさんの弟子という立場にはあるので、キャシーさんにもっとお願いして、たとえば東海地方でACRできる人がいますよとか、告知してもらおうかとも思ったが、それを頼めない自分がいた。
ほんとに事が進んだらどうしようと怖かったのね。

今はその怖さはないけれど、個人事業主、かよ、みたいな、自分の今後の立場を想像して「わはは何かそんなあははは」と照れてみたり、いろいろしている。
(これから山ほどやるべきことがあるのもわかっている。)

し、当然キャシーさんのほうでもいろいろお考えのことがあるだろうから、互いに、もしくはほかのかたも交えたところで最善の方法で、みんながファシリテータデビューできたらいいなと思っている。

たとえばほかのカウンセリング/セラピー法だと、すでに組織のできているところがあるよね。
ACRはこれから、なんだよね。
これはキャシーさん重圧かかるだろうなあと思うよ。

だから今は自分はほへ~んとして、集客を今の自分でできる方法でしておいて、ほんとに微力ではあるがACRについてSNSで伝えて、ってのを、あくまでもほへ~んとやるのがいいのかなと。

いや、ほんとはがむしゃらですw
アメブロを増やしたのでブログ更新も手間かかるし。
ついった告知もあるし。

ただ、attitudeとしての「ほへ~ん」は忘れたくない。
ひとりで燃え尽きてたら、それこそACRが組織として始動するとき、お手伝いできないからね。

燃え尽き注意報。

いや別に寝る時間削ってとかじゃないからね。
あくまでもほへ~んと。

(この人ただ「ほへ~ん」という言葉が使いたいだけなんじゃないだろうか、と思ったかたは正解です)

"SLAYER's PAUL BOSTAPH: JEFF HANNEMAN 'Was There The Whole Time' During Recording Of 'Repentless' "

http://www.blabbermouth.net/news/slayers-paul-bostaph-jeff-hanneman-was-there-the-whole-time-during-recording-of-repentless/

SLAYER drummer Paul Bostaph spoke to RiffYou.com about how the death of the band's co-founding guitarist Jeff Hanneman affected the recording sessions for SLAYER's upcoming eleventh album, "Repentless".

"It was very hard and a constant reminder that we lost our friend," said Bostaph. "That being said, he was there the whole time. I always thought about Jeff as I recorded this album. There wasn't a moment where he wasn't on my mind. This performance meant a lot to me. His presence was there. We pushed through it without forgetting about our friend."


Asked if SLAYER thought about hanging it up after Hanneman's death, Bostaph said: "I can only speak for myself — I didn't know what was going to happen, but I never felt at any time, in my heart, that SLAYER would be done. I felt like Jeff wouldn't have wanted us to quit, because this was his band. Period. That being said, we have to carry on with honor. Nobody ever foresees losing a friend. When that happens, you have choices: you can give up or you can carry on, and that's what we're doing. Was it an easy decision to carry on? I don't think it was an easy decision, but here we are."

亡くなった結果知れたこともある

考えたら、幸せになれる場所に行こう。
もちろんこれは心のなかのことでね。

いなくなった人のことも、なるべく考えたら幸せに感じるようなことを考えていたいんだ。

彼が、音楽の才能はあれど、ただの人間で、ほんとは弱さもあって、自ら何かを意図する、選択する、というところをすっとばして、いきなりファイナルな場面に至った。

いやこれは考えても幸せにならないがw、でも私は少なくとも彼の弱さが知れてよかったと思う。

「(バンド始めた)最初のころ、2、3人しかいない客を煽りながらライヴやるのが最高に楽しかった」
みたいなのが彼だと思っていたけど、それももちろん彼で、でも酒の誘惑に流れるのも彼だった。

私の中毒の解釈は、こないだうちついったで書いてるように癖、もしくは脳の誤解だが、その視点が提供されていたらよかったかなと思う。
(まあアメリカのことだからそのへんは日本より全然進んでるとは思うんだけど。)

って何か同じようなこと書いてるが、でも、私が、知りたくて、一番好きだったころ、ほんとに知りたくてたまらなかった彼という人について、ちょっとだけど知れたのは、よかったと思う。

彼は生きていても結局あまりインタビューは受けず、私は相変らず彼を強い人と勘違いし続けただろう。


今日自己ACRセッションしててわかったけど、特に死に関しては、やっぱり癒されるのに時間がかかるということだ。

私もここに何か書くことをセラピーのひとつとして、悲しみ通り過ぎたら、幸せな気持ちになれることを考えて、また悲しみが来たら、悲しめばよい。


私はもう早く亡くなる人は好きになりたくないと思う。
誰がいつ死ぬかなんてわかんないけど、もうたくさん。

ははっ。

So this is how he was when he was heading for his final moment

http://www.blabbermouth.net/news/slayers-kerry-king-on-jeff-hanneman-you-cant-make-an-addicted-person-get-better-if-they-dont-want-to/

SLAYER's Kerry King told Illinois Entertainer that he wrote the song "Chasing Death", from the band's upcoming "Repentless" album, after his longtime guitar tech, Armand Crump, overdosed and died in 2012. The track was penned partly in an effort to save fellow SLAYER co-founding guitarist Jeff Hanneman from alcoholism.

"There were some wake-up calls in there," King said. "You know, we were trying to get Jeff on board. And he had literally cheated death when he had that arm injury. I don't think people know it was as bad as it was, but the doctor told him when he went in to work on him, 'First, I'm going to try to save your life.' We didn't know if he was going to live. And Jeff, he just... he got out of the hospital, and he lived clean for a while. I'm, like, 'Dude, you just cheated death. You got another shot at doing this all over again. Let's fucking get you back on board, playing some shows.'"


He continued: "I knew when [Jeff] went into the hospital that last time, I knew it was bad, but I didn't know it was that bad. Nobody expected that call ... I didn't know if he was ever going to come out of that particular episode, but I didn't think it was going to be that quick.

"You can't make an addicted person get better if they don't want to. We did everything we were supposed to do, but that kind of personality, man. If they're not strong enough to outwit it, then it's gonna happen how it happened."

In January 2011, Hanneman contracted necrotizing fasciitis, also known as flesh-eating disease, from a spider bite in his backyard.

Hanneman eventually died in May 2013 from alcohol-related cirrhosis of the liver. He is credited for writing many of SLAYER's classic songs, including "Angel Of Death" and "South Of Heaven".

In a 2013 interview with Guitar World magazine, former SLAYER drummer Dave Lombardo stated about Hanneman's battle with the bottle: "Jeff was always a drinker. He always had a Coors Light tall can in his hand. Always."

"Jeff and I always drank," King added. "They called Steven Tyler and Joe Perry the Toxic Twins. We were the Drunk Brothers." He laughed. "The difference being that I don't wake up in the morning and need a beer. Jeff didn't know how not to drink."

"I would express my concern [about his alcohol intake], and he would back off for a few months — but then he would go right back to drinking," said Kathryn Hanneman, Jeff's wife of 24 years. "A few years before his dad died in 2008, I did notice that Jeff was relying on alcohol to start off his day. But I couldn't say much at that point, because I just knew we'd wind up in a verbal confrontation about it. And I'm not going to say I didn't drink with him — I did drink with him, sometimes quite heavily. I figured if l couldn't beat him, join him. But eventually I realized that I couldn't go on like that, and that if l stopped, I might be able to help him get away from it too. But I couldn't. He just relied on it too much to get him through the day."

Hanneman's SLAYER bandmates also spoke about the arthritic condition that he had been battling for many years and that was progressively worsening to the point of interfering with his playing. "His ability to play was slowly deteriorating," SLAYER frontman Tom Araya said, "but he didn't let anybody know that. We could just tell that things were going wrong. It was becoming hard to get stuff out of him. He was very proud and didn't want to make anyone worry about anything. Jeff would show up and play, and he didn't want anyone to know or worry about what else was going on with him. He tried to be really strong and sometimes that can weigh you down."

"You would notice it in his hands and a little bit in his walk," Lombardo said. "It seemed like He was struggling with his playing — it wasn't fuid. You could hear it in the leads. His playing just wasn't as tight as it could have been."

"People have to make their own decisions about how they want to live their lives," Araya said. ''You can't start dictating how they should live because it just pushes them away. It doesn't help anything. It wasn't easy, but it's not like we were blind to what was going on. And there were points that we tried to help and encourage him to come back — tell him he could still be a part of what we do, even if it wasn't full time.

"But I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that he didn't want to let us down. He didn't want to disappoint us. I think when he was having real difficulty over that last year, he just didn't want us to know about it. He kept saying that he needed more time. And the isolation didn't help much either. I think that no matter how things would have worked out, the end result would have been the same."

"It eats you up because you think, Why can't I fix this guy?" King said. "And it's not that he didn't want to be fixed . I mean, he didn't want to die. But he also couldn't help himself before it was too late."

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